Hello beauties! A couple nights ago I attended Esther Boller’s fashion show, where she showcased her senior collection (which is something I will do when I make it to senior year here at SCAD!). I am not sure how to put the collection or the experience of her show into words. I had chills the entire time, and by the end, I was tearing up. Both photos included in this post are from her Instagram, @estherboller, and there you can see more photos of her collection entitled “Ethereal Light”, as well as the process behind the stunning pieces. I also got to meet Esther, and she was so kind, humble, and down to Earth. I really look up to her now as both a fashion designer and a person.
On Thursday, my freshman year of college will come to a close. I get to go home for the Summer, and will be moving out of my dorm this upcoming Friday. It has been a great year, filled with highs and lows that have all managed to teach me important lessons about myself and others. I have made close friends, and have lost friends. I have made mistakes, and in the process, have come out of my shell just a little bit more. When I came to SCAD, I was afraid that I wouldn’t love fashion as much as I thought I did. In the beginning, I was having a difficult time imagining myself as a fashion designer. The fashion crowd seemed like a clique, one that I didn’t fit into. I think that fashion is like that sometimes, the artistry of the industry becoming lost in a sea of blogs and photos that do not tell the truth. But despite all of this, I have met so many inspiring people that have made me realize how passionate I am about fashion. I am finishing up my first fashion class right now, Fashion Technology, which is an introductory sewing class. My professor is the sweetest lady, but she pushes me, and I am so grateful for that because I’ve really fallen in love with sewing. It is my meditation, and I am so excited to spend the next three years learning and creating.
Seeing Esther Boller’s senior collection on Friday reminded me why I fell in love with clothing in the first place. The way clothing on our skin can make us feel connected to something bigger than us, as well as ourselves, is truly special. Seeing her collection brought on a wave of emotions for me. Ethereal Light, the name of her collection, was so fitting as I felt connected and grounded to something greater as I watched all of the models seemingly float through the twinkling lights that made up the runway.
I cannot remember if I have talked about my anxiety on GGS before, or whether or not I downplayed how bad it once was. My senior year of high school, I had panic attacks several times a week. I would leave school early, and my grades plummeted. My anxiety disorder controlled me, and knowing that I had to grow up really fast was scary for me. I had my heart set on leaving home for college, and I didn’t want to let my anxiety or fear of the unknown hold me back. On my first night here at SCAD, I wanted to go home. I remember feeling stupid for thinking that I could do this, and then all at once I realized that I had to make the choice to either work through my fears or succumb to them. While I am continuing to work through all of my fears, remembering that there is light all around me is comforting. Not light from the Sun, but the energy that surrounds us. Like Esther’s concept for her collection, we are connected to the stars and the wind (this was something spelled out for us at the fashion show, and I really, really loved it).
If you are struggling with something or are overwhelmed by fear, know that you are supported and are strong enough to work through it. Not a lot of people read my blog (although, I pretend there are), and I doubt she will read this, but thank you Esther for your beautiful collection and touching concept. I am so grateful to have been able to experience it.