Hi beauties! Wow, I feel like I’ve said this a few times before, but it has been a long time since I’ve written. This past fall quarter at school had some twists and turns that had my head spinning, and this week I feel like I am finally starting to catch my breath again. I did a small post on Instagram over the Thanksgiving holiday where I mentioned that the reason I wasn’t writing on GGS was because I just hadn’t been feeling like myself, and that is true through and through. It is important to me that I always put positivity into this blog, and I just didn’t feel like I could contribute that these past couple months. I needed to take a step back and just try my best to get my schoolwork done while juggling all of the other things, both expected and unexpected, that were put before me. I really value a positive perspective, but sometimes we have to go through darkness to grow….and that is where I was. I’ve been open before about my anxiety, and I had two panic attacks the last week of the quarter. It was alarming to me because my anxiety used to keep me from living my everyday life. I think that was the point where I realized that I was just going through the motions of my life, instead of acting with mindfulness and joy. From there, everything hasn’t been 100% better; but it was a starting point for working through the obstacles that are currently present in my life, versus ignoring them. I finally feel like myself again to where I can write on GGS. Oh, how I have missed talking beauty, life, and wellness with all of you!
Sometimes, it is extremely difficult to keep going. Just know that everything we go through is simply a phase of our life. I like to compare life to Pure Barre (haha, please bare with me, or barre with me?).
I really got into Pure Barre the summer before I started college. My anxiety was super intense my senior year of high school. I noticed when I started Pure Barre that to get better at it, I would need to push myself more mentally than physically. I began to change my mindset during the exercises, and in turn I was able to push my body further. When my legs were shaking at the barre and I felt as if I could just collapse right there, I would remind myself that I am stronger than I think. That realization is something I began carrying with me whenever I felt my anxiety start to set in outside of the studio. We are all so much stronger than we may believe we are, and if we can remember that when something we are going through feels impossible, we really do emerge stronger than we were before.
The Pure Barre studio here in Savannah was giving special discounts on class packages for Black Friday, so I purchased an unlimited class package that will cover my winter break and I am so, so happy to be back at the barre. My first class in over a year was on Monday, and I have done a class every day since. While my body is very sore, my mind is the clearest it has been in so long.
I can’t wait to get GGS going again this month, and as always, thank you so much to everyone who takes time to read this blog. It means the world to me.